So today was up, and down, but I think for a change I’ll tell you about the up. Frustrated with a million things that needed to be done at home, I decide I need to get away. The weather was super nice, so I said let’s go to the lake. The kids were somewhat stunned
“Right now?” asked Petra, “OKAY!”
We got our swimsuits and headed to a place where nothing needed to be done except play. I tossed in some sand toys, and a change of clothes and off we went. Normally I don’t go because I need to pack a million things, and it’s all too much, but today I decided we didn’t need all those things , but we did need a break.
When we got there, two other families were there, one couple, and one with one little girl, but they all left rather soon after we arrived. So we had the place to ourselves.
It all felt so easy, why didn’t we do this more? The kids played in the sand and hauled water to fill rivers carved out in the sand built by other children, left for the enjoyment of mine. They ran back and forth from the waters edge to the play ground, and back, and instead of hovering today, I let them free range. Their play was a thing of beauty. All of them playing together, they were queens, kings and princesses. Each had their own horse that would carry them from the playground castle to the sea lake. Elijah on Silver, Petra on Lovie and Natalia riding the sweetest little pony called princess.
Today during their perfect play I didn’t mourn the fact that one more pretend stead should lodge at the imaginary stables, nor was autism there. I simply drew in the wonder that is my life, the beauty, the light, the absolute perfection that rolled out before me. I took off my shoes and laid down on the ground with Micah and sucked up every bit of healing energy from the earth below me, willfully drawing it in to replenish me.
Eventually the wind picked up and we felt it was time to go. We picked up the mail, and headed home to a less perfect evening, but for a time today I wondered why everyone didn’t want to be me, because there was nothing in my life that was not just good, but kissed by a divine golden light.
I wish I had thought to grab my camera my phone takes the world’s worst picture.